Yes! I can honestly write this!!! I got "unstuck" and am actually working on my dissertation and getting something done! Woot! I really feel like this is going to work out, that I'm going to be motivated, that I'm going to make real progress instead of spinning my wheels.
I actually started a dissertation journal. I'm detailing what I did as well as how I felt when I did it. I'm hoping this will help me document the days that I do work, but it doesn't feel like I'm making progress. Also I'm hoping that if I admit in writing to myself that I did nothing on a particular day, it will motivate me. Also writing why I didn't should be helpful, especially if it is anxiety. Anxiety is my kryptonite; I can get so anxious from thinking about working on my dissertation that I don't start. Hopefully, writing it down will make me acknowledge it and move on.
It's funny; I write so much in so many places. There's this blog of course, my dissertation journal, my personal journal, poetry/prose about real or imagined events, and short stories. Sheesh. I enjoy a lot of it and I feel like it is helpful to get my thoughts and emotions in writing. Saves my friends from listening to me talk out my problems. I often have to talk through decisions. It's pretty much a monologue, it's like I have to hear the words come out of my mouth before I can think about them in a (fairly) objective way. So writing seems like a better alternative than 1) making friends listen to my hour-long monologue, or 2) talking to myself. Hmm, never tried that…
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